So, I'm sitting on my own in my office today. I have to admit I feel a sense of power sitting here because I am the queen of my castle, but at the same time, I do feel a sense of dread and cold 
sweaty palms that I will have to deal with everything on my own for the day. My colleague Sally has the day off today, and she knows everything about everything, so I do struggle a little when she's not here. I think impotent can describe how I often feel working here! There is so much to learn that is so technical, and I just struggle sometimes to get my head around it all. I will have been here 4 months tomorrow, and while I know how to do things on the computer like orders, quotes and invoicing, the second I pick up the phone or one of the factory boys comes up to ask me a question, I feel like they're speaking in a foreign language! I am hoping the knowledge will come with time, but I feel a bit like I'm sinking at the moment. :0(
sweaty palms that I will have to deal with everything on my own for the day. My colleague Sally has the day off today, and she knows everything about everything, so I do struggle a little when she's not here. I think impotent can describe how I often feel working here! There is so much to learn that is so technical, and I just struggle sometimes to get my head around it all. I will have been here 4 months tomorrow, and while I know how to do things on the computer like orders, quotes and invoicing, the second I pick up the phone or one of the factory boys comes up to ask me a question, I feel like they're speaking in a foreign language! I am hoping the knowledge will come with time, but I feel a bit like I'm sinking at the moment. :0(I haven't really done much recently, apart from having a night out on Thursday to meet Max Shuter (ex IAP) for a quiet drink, which ended up being me, Max and Dilip then me, Max, Dilip, Wes and Steve Lambert. It descended into a completely raucous evening as Max proceeded to get more and more drunk as the evening progressed. It was highly amusing, but not at all what I expected of the evening! Also bumped into an ex-boyfriend which turned me in to a gibbering and quaking wreck. I looked like a total tramp and just wanted to come across and cool and funny and aloof, but I actually think I came across as a total loser (but then again, at least by coming across in that way I was being true to myself!). Did a bit of shopping on Saturday (not enough for my liking, but I am rather skint for some reason) and then went to my sister's for the day yesterday which was lovely, and got to do some painting with my niece. After what seemed like about 2 hours sleep, I'm back here again. The weekends are just over far too quickly. Wish I was a lady of leisure sometimes!!
Anyways, hope you're all keeping well and had fun weekends. Happy Birthday Renee, I hope you enjoyed your day!
Love 'n' Stuff
Becky xxxx
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