I've been thinking a lot recently (and yes, it did hurt before you even think of asking!), and I have come to the realisation that I think I must be quite an annoying friend... I am always so down on myself and I can see why people wouldn't really want to hang around with me while I'm in that frame of mind. I guess if I don't like myself, how on earth can I expect other people to like me? Well, today marks the end... I really just want to pick myself up and be happy! I have had a lot of pretty sh**ty things happen to me, but then again, so have lots of other people, and they're not all mopey! I just want to start following my dreams and enjoying things a bit more. Obviously, I'd love to get a really well paid job where I can take photos and sing and write all day, but being that it's highly unlikely, I am just going to write when I can and take pics all the time and just enjoy the process of doing them. I'm 27 for f**k sake, I can't keep waiting for something interesting to happen, I need to MAKE it happen! I know I've said in previous blogs that we need to realise what is important, and I just haven't done anything about it, well no more people, a page has been turned and I am going to make something of myself. Watch out, I'm a-coming!!!
I heard that George Lamb had split up with his Mrs (HOW excited was I when I heard that!!), so Sally, if you ever see him in the BBC bar again, please give him my number! I'm so totally going after him!!!! ha ha ha! Highly unlikely that he'd be remotely interested and probably will think I look like a gargoyle (and he'd be correct!), but hey, I think he's hot, so I'm going after him!!!!!!
Anyway, I hope everyone is keeping well, and I hope to see you all soon!
Big Love
Becky xxxx